How many calories does this average out as?

[griefordepression]

I'm grieving my mum and my diet is really haphazard and terrible at the moment.

On Monday, I had a good double handful of blueberries with yogurt. Then two packets of crisps and two scoops of chocolate ice cream.

Yesterday I ate half a bagel with Philadelphia, a whole tub of Ben and Jerry's ice cream, a veggie burger and oven chips and a Terry's chocolate orange.

Unsurprisingly I'm not really hungry today but feel I desperately need actual nutrients, so I've had two bowls of home made vegetable soup. I think salmon for dinner with some veg.

My diet's not always quite this shit but it's pretty bad and I'm losing weight over the weeks, which is unnerving and I don't understand because doesn't a tub of Ben and Jerry's have about 1200 calories?

I should add I know nobody can say exactly how many calories it is, it just seems like a lot. Honestly it's like grief is draining my energy and burning calories, I am so tired.

Hopeful bump...

Have you tried My Fitness Pal? This has a calorie counter for food, branded and others so all you need to do is enter quantity/amount and you can work out the calorie content. Be prepared for the shock factor if you are eating more than recommended amounts but it's great if you want to limit yourself to say 2000 calories per day! Very useful though.

What do really want to know? It's not the calories you've eaten really is it?

It's normal in grief to find that our bodies go into shock and we can lose control for a while. You will recover and your eating will return to normal. Grief is exhausting, of course it's better to eat healthy food, but it's also ok to eat what you want sometimes.

When my mum died I ate normally and mainlined quality street and the weight dropped off me, to the point one of my friends pulled my DH to one side to check I was eating. It's grief, just eat what you feel like and when you feel like it, your routine will slowly right itself. Big hugs x

Its certainly the least of your priorities at the moment, just focus on your immediate needs for now and if that means a tub of this or that, then so be it.

Thank you, everyone. I am sorry to everyone who has experience of grief it's terrible.

No I guess it's not really that I need to know exact calories, but I suppose I'm a bit freaked out by losing weight when eating so much junk?

I didn't know grief could drain you physically like this, literally require food to fuel yourself getting through it.

I'm sleeping so much, I'm exercising maybe once per week and just want to stay at home - I thought my energy requirements would be massively reduced.

You aren't though, over the week you are eating fewer calories than before.
I would say the pp are correct and just focus on getting through the days, don't focus on calories and weight.
A bereavement meant I dropped weight; this was commented on repeatedly and triggered my ED. If I'd just been left to rebalance I'd have been fine. But it became a tempting distraction.