Can’t get motivated

[IrisAtwood]

In 2017 I had a terrible year - made redundant, Dad died, split up with partner, lost my home. Fought to start my own business, recover from abusive relationship and went NC with my family as they were also abusive.
Then I was suddenly diagnosed with another serious heart problem and had open heart surgery, then diagnosed with heart failure that meant I had to take early retirement in 2020. In October last year I was diagnosed with breast cancer and have had a long road until now - 7 weeks post surgery and waiting to see the oncologist. I also became a grandmother earlier this year.
Now that I am recovering physically I am really struggling to get motivated and do very much of anything.
I used to be in the gym 6 days a week, ran a business and worked full time up until 2020.
I am really struggling to motivate myself to do anything very much - even a 20 minute walk seems beyond me. I consider getting out of bed, getting dressed and going to a coffee shop as major wins. I also do some baking and some housework. To be honest I’d rather stay in bed and read or watch rubbish on my iPad. I also have major depressive disorder and generalised anxiety disorder which are both being treated.
is it really just a matter of ‘making myself’ do things?
Any advice?

I have also done a lot of online courses over the last two years and am trying to improve a foreign language that I speak. I also make plans with friends - the only way I can make sure that I go and do something!
I am usually quite driven, but have been feeling fat, tired and lazy recently.

I feel you OP. I could have written a lot of your post about how you feel in terms of motivation.

Sorry to hear about your health problems. Congratulations on becoming a grandmother.

I also feel fat, lazy, tired & undriven. I recently lost some weight but then I got ill and lost my will, drive and mojo. I'm currently eating everything & anything. All I want to do is stay at home, stay in bed, not get dressed. I don't want anyone to see how fat I am and old & tired I look and how I've left myself go.

I long to have a spring in my step. If I work out how to get this then I will let you know. I'm going to attempt to wash my hair later today. A huge effort for me. I really cannot be arsed but I know it will make me feel better.

Sending you hugs OP xx

@imanewuser I am sorry that you are feeling the same way as I am. I hope that you manage to get your hair washed.
Every little achievement is a huge win in this state!
I’ll also be honest - I even stopped showering apart from if I was meeting someone or had a hospital appointment 😖
Now I have a mental list of minimums: get up, get showered, clean my teeth, get dressed, take my medications and make the bed. If I’ve done those things then I try to feel proud of myself!
Maybe we can support each other 😊💪