Struggling so much

[hunkamunka44]

Life feels so hard at the moment. I have a lovely, very much wanted 1 year old dd and two older dc from previous relationship. My dd is such hard work. She doesn't sleep well and has had numerous health issues. We moved into a house that has had lots of hidden costs so that's been stressful.

Dh and I argue and bicker constantly. I know I have been vile and abusive to him. I am just so overwhelmed and my day to day life is nothing enjoyable, just work, chores, running after dd and barely sleeping.

I feel like a terrible person and am deeply ashamed of how I've treated dh. He hasn't been the best with me either. He doesn't help much with the baby and can be quite moody and cutting with his words. But we do love each other it just feels like the stress of life is draining all of the love and happiness away.

I sometimes have thoughts like if I left me or god forbid something happened to him how rotten to the core I would feel for how nasty I've been with him. I just can't get a handle on my emotions and everyday I feel stressed, overwhelmed and alone. I know other people have kids and jobs so why am I just not coping?

I think you should speak to your GP. You maybe have some depression and they may be able to advise or give medication. This is not a normal or healthy way to live.

It’s not depression, it’s the result of broken sleep, an expensive time of life and endless work with 3 kids.

It probably is the result of stress but abusive behaviour cannot be excused on account of stress. Well done OP for recognising this abusive behaviour pattern and trying to change it.

Ok doctor! As if you can outright say what it is or isn't!

Im not surprised you feel so stressed, lack of sleep is awful, especially over a period of time.
Is there anything you can do to help your DD sleep better? Is there an end in sight with her health issues?

well any dr tells you look at the symptoms - all the stress the OP is dealing with who would be happy and loving life. Lack of sleep makes people snappy with eachother. Money stress makes people snappy with eachother. Sorry I don’t need a doctorate to say sometimes life is diffcult and miserable.