I'm not quite sure how to start this, other than by saying I had a 'natural birth' that ended with an episiotomy as my daughter's cord was stuck around her shoulders. It was thought that I had third degree tears, so after just gas and air I ended up post birth going to surgery and having a spinal to sew me up. It was second degree but rather complex apparently. This was 18 weeks ago.
Now I have what feels like a lot of internal scar tissue that has created ridges inside me. I also feel it's affected the shape around the vagina and feel it's made me tighter and smaller than ever. I had a smear test 15 weeks post birth which was very painful - worse than any smear I'd had before giving birth, and sex is sore at all times and mostly painful and penetration is actually quite difficult due to the scar tissue / shape.
No one talks about these things so I am unsure as to how common this is, and what can be done. I have made an appointment with my doctor but the earliest I can get one is four weeks away! I'm gutted as I feel ready to have an active sex life again and I have missed this closeness with my husband, and my daughter is now in her own room. I feel really depressed thinking about it.😥