Body dysmorphic disorder

[Canyoureadmymind]

It's not really an AIBU, posting for traffic.
I've completed a number of tests online which suggest it's highly likely I have this and so I'm going to speak to my GP.
I look in the mirror obsessively, 50 times a day.
I look at and obsessively touch my nasolabial folds and as soon as I can afford it I will be treating them. I'm only 32 but the thought of my face changing is incredibly distressing, even though I know I'm lucky to be alive and that it's all I have to worry about.
Ive had 1 area of Botox around my eyes and filler in my nose but as I say I want the nose to mouth lines done asap.
I don't find myself unattractive and I don't really wear make up as I'm poor at applying it and find it hassle to do/take off every day.
However my appearance preoccupies me incredibly. If I see very beautiful women in the street I start to feel like a bag of trash in comparison.
I got bullied for my appearance when younger and I've since had braces and changed other things which has helped a lot. I'm a healthy weight with a BMI of 21 but I have to work to achieve this.
I have stopped going on Instagram so much as I know a lot of it is just fakery, but I'm still so obsessed with looking nice.
Has anybody else had this/been diagnosed with it and did anything help you?
It probably just makes me sound vain and I am, but I have anxiety in many areas of my life and this is just how it's manifested.

If I could afford it I'd be having teeth whitening, eyebrows done properly, facials, hair extensions the lot.

Another thing I do obsessively is look at old pics of myself, and compare them with now to see if I've aged a lot.

I have BDD too although it manifests itself in an eating disorder rather than what sounds like some more OCD-type intrusive behaviours for you? In and of itself, I don't find it distressing so much as confusing - I don't understand why people can't see what I see when I look at myself. But, clearly, the activities that it generates can be distressing and/or destructive. Medication and therapy have, broadly, kept it under control for me.

Well done for getting help. ED history here - I used to have a list of flaws about my face and body I needed to fix, it started about age 9. I’m more forgiving now I’m in my 40s and the self loathing and obsession with flaws has gotten much better although it’s never completely
gone.

when I’m particularly obsessed, it’s often as a distraction from other situations I can’t fix.

Suspect there is a link between autism and BDD too.

Good luck - things can get better.