So he started a new job this week in my friends place, I have her 1yr, my 1yr and my DS (5) normally i wouldnt whinge or moan cos its what I do. But I am at the min going through my 6th mc, Ive kept having her 1yr and my two this week even though I am throwing up constantly, therefore got no energy and feel shakey and drained. I honestly just about manage to get them down for naps and feed them My 5 yr old is being a start in helping because of the struggle for other childcare.
Anyway I was dreading today I had to take 5yr old to an appt at the hospital, I got an early night to see if it helped, I still woke up feeling like crap so was generally in a crappy mood this morning so tried to keep my mouth shut.
DP said I was wallowing in self pity and an unsufferable bitch because i said i was worried about coping with the 3 of them going out with the way I am. He also said I dont know what being sick is and he doesnt think I am actually sick... Then worst of all I was washing the bottles when he said to me "are you getting your period or something"
Soo fuming at him right now, he didnt even say goodbye or good luck or anything. Luckily I did manage ok this morning but now feel like shite. He hasnt text or rung to see how I go on and apparently I need to sort myself out and eat properly !
I do eat properly, but it doesnt stay down. Part of me often wonders what the hell they would do if I got taken into hospital with dehydration or something I am so angry i wanna go into his work and punch him in the head and leave or even make him walk home later.