Sexual abuse ?

[Glorydays99]

I am currently having therapy for general anxiety and working through some unrelated stuff from childhood. Recently I've been remembering a time involving a guard who worked for us , hired to oversee people coming and going from the house. ( we lived in Africa in the 80s when I was a child and every expat had one for security ) He, on occasion used to take me behind the bushes and pull up my top and touch & squeeze my breasts saying that it would " help make them grow" I was 7 at the time. Nothing more than this happened as I remember it.
Just wondering if any point mentioning this in therapy and not quite sure what I'm expecting from telling therapist nor really why I'm posting this. However it's something I've never told anyone and I work in mental health myself and recently had a patient who disclosed sexual abuse on their sister age 10 ( being dealt with by police) so think this I what may have triggered this coming up for me. I know it is from a very long time ago and wasn't a serious case of abuse but I feel a lot of shame around it years later.

I'm sorry you had to go through that op, what he did was completely wrong and should never have happened to you. You did nothing to deserve that he is completely to blame. I think if you have feelings of shame around it and recent events have triggered these memories and emotions for you then yes I think therapy might be a place to unpack some of that. I think you're maybe telling us here because you know deep down it's worth talking about so you can let go of that unwarranted shame so you're testing the waters with how it feels talking about it. I'm glad you decided to open up even if it's just on here as this is an experience you shouldn't have to carry alone. I know you say it wasn't a serious case, but any case is serious- and you would and should be taken absolutely seriously if you decide to talk about it further. You probably know with therapy that sometimes things feel worse before they start to feel better and sometimes opening up about those particularly painful memories brings them and the feelings attached to the forefront, so be extra kind and gentle to yourself as you process it. I hope therapy helps you let go of the shame (he's the only one should feel shame).

Ilovetea42 apologies for late post. Thank you for taking the time to write such a helpful kind reply. Think it helped just typing it out in a message and getting the resurfaced thoughts of it out of my head. I did bring it up in my therapy and I'm glad I did as I definitely have been holding onto some shame around it. I feel like I needed to air it and now I have I'm processing and letting go at last. ..thx again