There, I've said it. I've been wanting to say it for weeks but couldn't bring myself to after suffering several miscarriages and many years of trying.
I cannot stand this anymore, I'm 30 weeks and on the edge. I cannot do this for another 10 weeks.
I feel ill constantly, like I've had the flu for the past 25 weeks.
I have hyperemesis, I weigh a stone less than what I did at my booking appointment at 8 weeks, I haven't been to work since 10 weeks, my DH is working 6 or 7 day weeks to provide for us and I'm so lonely, bored and fed up.
I have no motivation to do anything, I wish somebody would put me to sleep until baby is born.
On top of migraines, sickness, nausea, diarrhoea, shitting myself (yes I've shit myself twice due to uncontrollable diarrhoea), weeing myself if I turn over too fast in my sleep, sleep? What is that now I've hit 30 weeks? Im up 1-5 every night, I now have piles and my vagina is swollen too.
No infections, urine sample and swab fine.
Mental health team are useless. I walk my dog for an hour every day and that's all I do. I might put a load of laundry on, wipe down the kitchen sides and toilet but see friends? Nope. Take myself into town for a wander around the shops? Nope.
I don't have the energy to even wash my hair. I feel disgusting, my hair is the worst condition it's ever been and my once clear skin is now bumpy and shit.
Please tell me I will be okay once baby is born? I feel like I'm going to be like this forever.
Also sick of everyone (particularly MIL) telling me I'll forget about it and be pregnant with the next within a year. I don't ever want to be pregnant again.