I’m a head of a primary school. There has to be accountability, and knowing that safeguarding processes are sound is essential. When I started at my school it was RI. But unless you are in the system, you don’t seem the relentless build up and up of pressure from the local authority, from governors, from parents, from staff to be judged as ‘good’ next time when ‘good’ can be such a subjective judgement and dependent upon the luck of the draw with which inspector you get. The pressure takes you to breaking point. The judgement becomes a stick to beat you with in every local authority visit, in every horrible article in the local newspaper about ‘worst schools in our area’ that look at the previous judgement and ignore the positives. It becomes an easy way of the parents criticising you if they don’t agree - “Well, the school is RI, what do you expect?”
For about a year up until my most recent inspection, I couldn’t sleep because of the worry of what the next outcome would be. The judgement feels personal, because it goes out into the public domain. People judge you personally on those one or two words, they don’t see what else you are battling against, the massive safeguarding issues, the lack of funding, the antagonist parents who launch personal attacks on you on social media because you won’t bend to their whims, the struggles to recruit staff. And that’s just a few things. For about a year before we were due to be inspected, my poor children didn’t have a mum, my husband put up with a burnt out, snappy, work-obsessed wife.
We were inspected in September and got good. But I am only just starting to be able to sleep again, I am still jumpy, I still feel physically sick when the school phone rings between 10 - 12 which is when ofsted call. As awful as it is, I can understand why that poor headteacher killed herself after that Ofsted grading because it’s not one word on a report, it’s the undermining of years of hard work and putting everyone else above yourself, and then knowing that you are now facing years of constant criticism and pressure. I probably would have done the same.
And for those who wonder why heads still do the job when we face this - because we care so deeply about our children and our schools and, let’s face it, there don’t seem to be many others banging at the door to take over. I wonder why not.