Trigger warning!!!
When I was around 10, my cousin (male) used to babysit me and my brothers. We would play 'hide and seek.' He would send my brothers off and keep me in the bedroom. He taught me all sorts of 'delightful' stuff, including how to get a man aroused and what to do with my mouth (which he insisted I try on him).
One of my Aunt's (not his Mum - we are a large family) overheard me telling my female cousin (same age as me) about it. She told my Mum (as she should).
I forgot all about this until a 'new' cousin came on the scene when I was in my early twenties. My Mum let me befriend him. I looked after his daughters. It was only when his daughters started posting 'inappropriate' photos on FB, (they were 9 and 12) and I had a gentle word with him to see if he knew, (thinking that he would be horrified) did I twig who he was. His reaction to his kids posting on FB that I was just jealous because they were gorgeous and could get anyone they wanted.
When I confronted my Mum about it, she confirmed that it was him that had abused me. She says, however, that she didn't know he'd actually 'done' anything, just that he'd been talking to me about sexual things. Apparently she has a recording of me talking about this stuff - and that I had giggled all the way through it. I've since told her that he did in fact 'do stuff' but she refuses to engage.
To clarify, I think I was about 10. He is about 7 years older than me.
I want to go and report it now. I'm having a very hard time.
I'm cross with my Mum. I'm cross that she didn't cut ties his Mum. I'm cross that she is now not engaging. I'm just cross. Aibu for any of these feelings or for wanting to report him now, 30 years later?