The counsellor I have been going to for over a year recently unexpectedly told me she's taking an extended break from work, possibly for the rest of the year. I really like her and we'd been working through some deep childhood trauma.
Obviously I knew we'd have to end at some point, but I thought it would be when I was ready and at a point in therapy where I felt I'd come to some sort of conclusion with my issues. I'm really sad about it all and I'm a bit shaken because I felt that having my counsellor gave me some consistency and grounded me in the middle of working through a lot of painful stuff. I understand my counsellor's reasons but it's still really hard for me. At work I was thinking about how I'm not ready to finish with her yet and I got quite tearful just thinking about it. I know I could go to a different therapist but I can't really contemplate that right now. I would have to go through everything again, plus explain to the new counsellor what I'd done with the old one, plus it wouldn't be my counsellor.
I'm not ready and it feels unfair that the decision has been taken out of my hands. I'm not angry with her and I like her a lot but it's hard.