DP joined Instagram recently and about half the people he follows are young women into fitness (gym stuff mostly but a few of them are to do with onlyfans). Its made me feel horrible in many ways. I’m embarrassed that everyone we know can see. I feel inadequate and like that is clearly his kind of ideal woman and I’m mid 30s and slightly overweight, never been skinny. DP encouraged me to get into power lifting which I enjoy and now I feel icky about that like he’s trying to change me. Hit a real raw nerve for me about ageing and my weight and made me wonder if I’m better off ending the relationship.
I haven’t been happy with other things lately anyway - he spends excessively, and he said a few years ago he wanted to leave the military but he won’t and I really do not want to move away from all my friends and family if he gets posted. He is posted 2 hours drive away from our house at the minute and he lives away from me on the base during the week, as he can quite easily drive straight home on a Friday night. But if he was to get posted much further away that wouldn’t be practical and he’d want me to move with him. We bought our dream house last year and he’s not even here most the time.
Not sure if I’m being over the top about the Instagram thing or generally unhappy about other issues. AIBU?