To want and not want a relationship at the same time?

[WindowGazers]

I've been single for 4 years, since my son was born. I'd love a relationship, I've always wanted to have more kids (if I find the right person), but I live on my own with my son and can't imagine giving this up. Maybe I've just been on my own so long and living with someone seems so alien that I've forgotten that it can actually be nice. I can't think of an ethical way to have biological children on my own, and I do find myself missing having someone in my life romantically. Does anyone else really want but really not want a relationship at the same time?

Totally- sounds nice in theory, but a lot of effort and compromise for usually relatively little in return. I reckon don’t overthink it.

Yes, me.
I’ve basically been single most of my life and lived alone for most of it outside of living with my DD.
I’m in my 50s now and can’t imagine how hard it would be to live with someone.
Or be in a loving relationship - my recent ex was far from loving.

I miss being in a relationship but I don’t want to be in a full on relationship.
Maybe some companionship once or twice a week. But some men aren’t happy with that so it’s hard to find.