I think I'm feeling sorry for myself, but does anyone else feel like sometimes everyone just gives you a hard time and chips away at you ?
For example, my DM chips away at how I do things a lot. She seems to think that because I was a smart / perfect child, I should also be a smart and perfect adult. She often says that she can't believe how I turned out with certain things, because I was such a great child. I don't know why, but it really hurts, like deep within me, when she says stuff like that. Almost like, she made me good and I undid it when I grew up and had my own autonomy.
My MIL made some joke about how my kids might finally grow up to become the profession I studied but didn't pursue. ( I have a good career anyway and actually chose not to enter the profession out of choice, because I had some longer term work experience in it and just didn't like it ). I know it was a joke, but I don't know, it just got me somehow.
My H is also always finding things I'm not doing well. Yesterday he was yet again having a go at me for not taking enough pictures. Apparently I never think to take pictures and so we don't have enough pictures of ourselves. His family are very snap happy ( the women ), but I've never been like that and just stay in the moment. It's a silly thing but he always lays into me about it. Same with other things he finds to nit pick about. Any decision I make is always the wrong one really.
Back to my DM who we've seen a fair amount lately. She's always finding something to say that I am doing wrong with my kids. My toddler screams too much and is too messy and watches videos too much. The toddler is at nursery too much and too young to be at nursery anyway apparently and needs to stay home with me ( I work )...The baby is too needy and difficult. The drawers in my kitchen aren't tidy enough. The list really does go on.
Other family members are piping up behind my back about how they don't respect that others are raising my kids because I work and how much help I get ( paid for ) and how they've just coped so much better with everything compared to me.
The list really goes on. I'm feeling a bit down in the dumps so perhaps I'm just seeing things from a negative viewpoint. But I very much feel like people never have anything nice to say!