We were together 25 years, some good, some bad. He's 10 years older than me, 58, and over the past few years he'd become quite happy doing his own thing, mainly drinking and gambling at weekends, as he worked nights during the week, leaving me to always do things alone with the kids. I was very lonely so decided to leave and now divorced and live alone with youngest child. This was 18 months ago.
I'm not sure what I expected but this life is not what I'd hoped for. I'm lonely and bored and really miss having a partner, or just someone there who shares life, kids with you. ExH on the other hand is very happy being alone, doing what he wants and because he drinks at weekends our youngest doesn't want to go there so he barely sees him which means I never get a break. I'm raising our youngest (12) alone basically with no help whatsoever from him, gives me £100 a month which is nothing. He tells me this is what I wanted so I need to get on with it. He never takes youngest anywhere and is very set in his routine of going to the bookies and getting pissed, alone at weekends.
We have 3 children together and a lovely grandchild who he barley sees. I just can't get my head around how he can be happy living this life when he could have so much more if he would just realise what he's missing out on. I've hoped numerous times over the past 18 months that he'll come to his senses and promise to be a better husband/father and want a normal life. I know I should probably move on but I can't because I keep hoping he'll change but in my heart I know that's not going to happen. I even text him last night and said I'd met someone in the hope he would be shocked into changing his ways but all is said was he hopes I'm happy and he's happy for me and if I ever need someone to talk to he's there!! It's made me feel a million times worse. How do I move on?