I'm a teacher, working on a temporary contract. It's a long story but the school I'm working at I've actually been at for 13 years but I left (resigned) for a couple of years to have my dc2 as there were health complications. It was for the best at the time. I did supply after this for a little while and then got invited back to my original school to cover maternity last year. It was a part time temporary contract that then got extended so I've been back there a year. I was hoping they'd keep me on again permanently.
However, my contract ends in July and I'm worrying that will be it now. Reason being, I'm job sharing with a hlta who was doing cover. She had to step in to job share after the previous job share teacher left. She's fabulous and I love working with her, she's very good at her job. However, I think that they'll ask her to teach a class full time from September. She gives everything 110%, goes in to work during the hols, she's well liked by slt and cheaper being unqualified. I don't think anyone else will be leaving either.
My self confidence is very low with my job at the moment which doesn't help. I'm not the teacher I was before having children and I've been through a lot since having them. My dc1 is 4 and my dc2 is 18 months. My eldest also has sen which can be extremely demanding. I give everything I can to my job but I have limitations because of other life/family responsibilities. I feel like I'm not as good as other teachers at the school but on the other hand, I do still enjoy teaching and always try my best.
I'm just worrying that the school will let me go and not give me any further contracts. I'm worried I won't get another part time teaching position somewhere else as they are quite difficult to find. I've done supply and tutoring and the money isn't consistent enough. I'm just disheartened that I will likely lose my current position because I'm not good value for money in comparison to an unqualified teacher.
AIBU to feel like this?