I'm early 20s, lived away from home during uni but have been back in my family home for a few years now trying to financially be able to move out. I'm thankfully nearly at that point and hope to move out to my own place in the next few months.
While I can't wait to move out (I've desperately wanted to for a couple of years), I also feel quite anxious about it. I didn't have the best experiences growing up, and my family unit of my mum, my sibling and me was quite isolated. This has affected my mental health and I am currently receiving treatment. I don't have relationships with any other family members and my mum never had many friends so no family friends to rely on. My relationship with my mum is ok but she's never been very emotionally available for me and needing some space from her is a big reason why I'm so keen to move out.
I'm scared about moving out and having no support system. I have my friends from uni but we're now spread all over the country so they're not immediately there for me if I need them. Plus they've got their own lives and are also starting out in their careers. I go to a church locally but I find it quite difficult as there are lots of families with children or couples whose children have grown up and left home so they have more of a social life with each other. I find it triggering to hear or see people talking about family events or having cousins/family friends or things that to them are totally normal but which I never had. Even when people from church invite me to things or have me round, which is so kind, I'm acutely aware that I'm not completely "in" their group because they have their own families who are naturally going to be their priority ahead of me, and I have no one.
I'm not really sure what I'm looking for by posting but I suppose I just need some validation that this is really hard and it hurts because other people can just take having a support network for granted. I feel like I fall through the cracks because I'm not a child/teenager that people would naturally look out for, but I also don't have a partner and I do need people to see me and support me.