Just venting here. Name changed, too. It reflects how I feel right now.
Today I should have had my UC payment. It’s not here. No messages from UC. I’ve done everything the same: reported my income on time.
The only difference is I started an OU course which I’m not eligible for any maintenance loan from, just the tuition fee loan which is paid straight to the OU. It’s not been processed (6 weeks in) yet so I have no information to pass on to UC. I’ve kept them informed, had confirmation UC will not be affected, everything sounded OK. No one has ever said “oh, by the way, your payments will stop” And now…no payment. Bills due. Wages are two weeks away. I wish I had never applied to further my education and life chances. This is a disaster. I have nobody to beg from. I can’t speak to anyone from SFE or UC because they don’t work Sundays. So for the next 12 hours I’m a sobbing mess. This is such a first world problem and I feel rubbish for not coping but it’s just ONE MORE THING. I can’t cope with this as well. I’m going to have to quit my course if this is going to happen every loan renewal. The stress is unbelievable. All I wanted to do was be able to be a better mum for my girl, for her to be proud of me, for her to see that education is a path to better things for us. And now I’m crying cos I can’t pay my bills. I work hard, I manage to get by. But this pain of stress is hurting so bad right now.
AIBU on myself?