When I had DD (now 7), I had severe PND which involved feeling suicidal at times. I was not a good mum. I had no patience with my DD and made a lot of mistakes-still making them now but less so and I'm more aware if my behaviour e.g. having too high expectations, lack of patience, too sharp, not empathetic enough.
Now she is older, she is very shy and can be extremely emotional-small things seems to escalate quickly which, even now my mental health is better, I find difficult to deal with. I see others her age chatting confidently to adults, smiling and enjoying the world around them. My DD is quiet and watchful and seems to find it difficult to show positive emotions at times. My personality can be like this due a similar relationship with my own mum. I believe my mum has mental health issues which have never been diagnosed.
What can I do to start healing the damage I've done? I vowed not to be like my mum and accept my failings, be better. I'm just not sure how. AIBU to think I can put my DD on the right path emotionally after the first few years not being great? Can things like this be undone?