A friend told me today about an incredible once in a lifetime trip her and her husband are taking with their children. It is exactly the sort of thing I've always wanted to do and fills me with excitement just helping her plan it.
My DP is very anxious and cautious. He wasn't always this way. He is used to go wherever with me and not need anything other than a stiff drink to navigate a new city or speak to people. Something in him changed (after children? Age? Covid?) and now even a UK city break with him is hard work. Everything has to be planned and he has lost his spontaneity. Even things like staying out until 7.30/8 with the children is a bit of a struggle (shouldn't we get back now?) etc. To be honest it's not how I imagined my life. I wanted adventure and to not feel like I'm constantly with someone who wants to get to stay in and go home!
I know anxiety is difficult but he doesn't do anything about it. He won't talk about it and his anxiety manifests itself as mild irritation or grumpiness. It's not great to be around.
Is there any saving us? Someone who I trust said that maybe I'm just not suppose to be in a relationship as I'm actually quite selfish, this could be true too!