I feel awful even complaining because it seems like such mundane reasons, especially when other people are going through much worse. I'm starting to feel as though I'm slowly losing myself.
I shouldn't complain because on paper I have a great. 2 beautiful healthy little girls, a fiancé that is generally great and a good job. It's just all starting to feel too much. I go back to work from maternity leave within the next few months, my tiny baby will be going into nursery full time and I have a wedding to plan within 8 months. How am I supposed to go from being with my youngest 24/7 to letting someone else look after her and potentially see all her firsts.
I just can't seem to settle myself. I'm tired 24/7, to the point of having headaches everyday for the past 3-4 weeks but here I am wide awake when I could be in bed sleeping.
I just feel so unhappy and I can't figure out why. I get these moments where it's like a weight is on my shoulders and I just feel so out of control of my life and like I'll feel like this forever.
I don't know how much of this post makes sense as to be honest I've not even read what I've wrote. I just needed to talk and not to someone I know