3 years ago, when I was 48, I was delighted to be asked early for a routine mammogram (I had no pain or lumps). I have dense breasts, and the pain during compression was excruciating. I don't even know if the radiographer managed to complete it, because I went faint. I've had pain in my right breast ever since, which I took to be bruising/strain, but when it didn't go I was referred for investigation at the hospital breast unit June 2021. They did ultrasound which was clear as far 'as they could see' but 'mammogram is the gold standard and only that will tell us for certain'. I had to be content with the ultrasound as my fear of the mammogram pain got the better of me. Fast forward to last Sept, I went on combined HRT and have what I took to be hormonal pain in both breasts which masked the targeted pain in my right. However it's coming through more than ever now and I've been referred back to the hospital for the same process as 18 months ago. Part of me is so angry at myself of being fearful of something that could save my life, and the other part is worried sick about how I will cope even with painkillers if I can get over the fear, and wondering why this is the only scan that still compresses tissue; why in over 100 years there is no effective 3D alternative.