I went away this Christmas for two weeks, just me my husband and two kids. Our main objective was to get away from the stress of Christmas and the expectations to see family we don't want to. For me especially I've suffered serious addiction problems and my family are huge triggers. My past and childhood was hell and I find the pressure of Christmas and the extra time off and pressure and constant guilt trips about seeing family really triggers me and cause me intense anxiety and stress. It's taken me years and years to get to here, where I put myself and my mental health first, before trying to please and act happy families when it's anything but. It was the best Christmas I've ever had. But it's still hard and I still get pangs of guilt and self doubt and of course sadness and maybe loneliness. Still missing a family structure I never really had. And I wondered if anyone's in the same situation post Christmas, and reflecting on maybe your first of no contact with family? And how do you feel?