AIBU to believe this room exists?

[Epilepsy]

I have epilepsy (nocturnal so usually a seizure just before waking). I have had a previous thread about the oddness of the post ictal period as I don't recognise the present (jamais vu as opposed to deja vu) and am convinced I am in the past when I come round. This isn't like a memory, it's really like time travel in its level of clarity and detail eg the other day I was convinced my DD didn't need to be picked up primary school as she was going to her friend Joanna's house for tea. I did not believe DH when he said DD is actually at university at the other end of the country I knew what subject DD had as her last lesson at school that day, what I put in her lunchbox and how her hair was plaited etc. DD doesn't even remember Joanna as it was a short lived friendship and I don't think I would even remember her name under "normal" circumstances. In addition I have had instances where I recall "provable" stuff like car registration plates, postcodes, insurance reference numbers etc from over thirty years ago. I do not have anywhere near that level of memory in "real life" in fact my short term memory is fucked due to seizures/meds and I usually can't remember what I said/did 10 mins ago!

Anyway, recently I have had uncontrolled seizures and a change of meds and have been having extremely lucid post ictal periods but (this sounds ridiculous typing it ) they are different and I believe it is the future I am "seeing" not the past. Bear with me As this thread is already outing I can't describe the exact scenarios as they concern my DC, but they aren't situations that I already knew about subconsciously or could have been told about and forgotten, these are one off and very unlikely events that couldn't have been predicted eg a week after my seizure, DD meets a brand new friend in a bar who <insert something niche and unexpected here like their father is now a monk, or their aunt is a member of Hearsay> I haven't told my DC about these seizure "visions" so they wouldn't have known this would happen.

I realise I sound a trifle unhinged let me reassure you I am a cynical down to earth person in RL who doesn't believe in any creepy woo bollocks.

My seizures aren't controlled at present and in the last three I have woken up in a room that is very detailed and I absolutely believe it exists and I or one of my DCs will see it in the future and possibly live in a house with it? It isn't a grey standard living room with a feature wall (sorry to people with this room) It has a distinct patterned carpet and white wardrobe and storage with particular handles.

I am actually laughing a bit myself typing this, as it sounds so ridiculous. I suppose I'm posting partly in the hope I can come back to this thread in five years with a photo of said room (imagine!) but also interested in MNers opinions especially non woo type believers like myself (usually). My last thread was interesting as some people had experienced the jamais vu phenomena so maybe someone has also had this? The irony is I would assume they are talking bollocks normally

This is fascinating. I am interested in your other experiences too. I realise you said they were outing but any chance you can expand more in a disguised manner?
I do think we currently experience life in a very narrow plane but there a lot more out there we don't perceive. Our modern western conditioning makes us sneer at anything 'out of the ordinary' but actually that view point is both arrogant and naive.

Following this thread to see if OP is a time traveler 😮

@Epilepsy I have epilepsy too - I will come back later to update but I also experience similar during seizures.

I stumbled on the idea of 'universal consciousness' and it makes a lot of sense to me. I have only told my DH in real life as I think others might think I am insane!

I am a novelist and my next book uses seizures to give the protagonist Time Traveller's Wife style otherworldly experiences.

This is so interesting to see other people have weird experiences! Even Miss Marple 

It's so niche it's a bit outing @LimeBasiandlMandarin and as its my DC privacy rather than mine, I can't really say. I know how annoying that is on threads though! perhaps the closest comparable is that I "visualised" one of them breaking a bone (but an unlikely one not an ankle or arm etc that was a "likely to happen" injury/coincidence because they play rugby regularly etc) and then that same injury happened two days later.

I really want to know if my room exists! I will definitely come back and update if I ever see it.

@SomeBeings have you heard of DMT? I am obviously a layperson with no medical knowledge but I know that epilepsy meds basically dampen down the electrical activity in my brain so hallucinogenics maybe work by stimulating areas? I am aware of people who believe they have travelled in time/had out of body experiences using DMT. Would definitely love to hear from a more knowledgeable person than me. I asked my neurologist about my cat predicting my seizures and they did say animals can sense medical conditions (ironically I can't remember the details of the conversation). I imagine if I ask about psychedelic drugs on top of the cat questions they will think I'm a bit odd  I haven't tried DMT myself as my brain is fried enough these days  My epilepsy is adult onset so when I was younger I did dabble with various substances and to the best of my recollection I never time travelled. I had interesting visions and hallucinations but was definitely aware at some level they weren't actually real.

The more I think about it the more I believe it's not exactly time travel as such but as memories from the past are accessible to us, so perhaps our brains genuinely can access the future in some ways? It's interesting as it's a scientific as well as a philosophical query. My DH talks about the concept of time being "bendable" (that isn't the right term but I don't understand it at all, whereas DH can grasp the physics behind it. Also something about space time?) I think of it more from an "Into the rose garden" concept but they are the same thing just differently expressed. I'm not intelligent enough for this @forththeroast you sound as though you know more about this? I will definitely look more into Buddhism.

Just come across this thread and wondering if you've seen the room yet.