I am so fed up with myself

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I am a mess. I overeat all the time. have 15kg to loose. I dont take care of myself. I am impatient and really really try hard for my toddler to be the best version of myself but in reality i just snap and I am not emotionally available sometimes. I snap at DH, he drives me nuts. My parents drive me nuts. Everyone is annoying. They are wonderful people and I couldn’t ask for a better husband but yet cannot control my anger. Might have depression but i am being referred from one place to another and it takes month. I have been like that for some time. Now have only more and more problems which are out of my control but make me more miserable.
i promise myself every evening i will try better next day. There is no better day next day. Ever.

I'm right there with you
Except I have 30kg to lose.

It's shit isn't it

It is. I used to be so fun, so happy, always smiling, always thriving at everything, with a great body lol! In my 20s and before. Long long time ago. I know i have reasons to be happy, great husband, we both have some jobs, i am educated and it was hard to get that degree, i have a wonderful son, great family, i am healthy. Wtf i still cant be happy

I literally could have written this. Don't have any answers but here for hand holding!

Op I could have written your post almost word for word. No answers sadly. I need to lose 2 stone. Everything annoys me. I'm impatient. I just want to lock myself away. I overeat then hate myself for it, every single day.

How old are you? Perimenopause could be at play because that fucks everything up. I completely lost ANY semblance of patience when that hit me, and I could be best described as a series of unfortunate events.

Take salt baths