I'm due back at work in March when my maternity leave ends. My dd will be 10 months old and I'm already dreading it. She is a clingy baby and has a few health issues. I work 30 hours and have got her a place at nursery for 3 days a week. I just don't know how she'll cope. She doesn't like going to anyone else, even friends and family. She's never been apart from me for longer than an hour or so. She is just so happy and settled with me. I know it could help bring her along and if that's the case, great. But I just don't feel happy about it at all and am already thinking of ways I can avoid going back to work.
I work in admin and am lucky that I can do quite a lot of home working although work are gradually trying to open the office back up again. But realistically I know I won't get much done with dd here so regardless of whether or not I'm working from home I still need proper childcare in place.
I just keep thinking what else could I do? How else could I earn money flexibly in a way that would allow me to be home with her more? At least while she's little. Dh earns a good wage and would support me if I wanted to take some time out but I wouldn't feel right not contributing anything. Any ideas?