DH and I have recently moved abroad, we will be here for around 2 years we think. We have lived here previously and returned for work.
I am considerably more homesick this time and struggling. I love the place where we are and love living here, but I miss my family so much that I have struggled to feel settled this time.
My DM is having a hip replacement on Monday, she is 70. Up until now I have been relaxed about it and had never planned to fly home, but suddenly I feel consumed with anxiety and guilt and I want to go home to be with her. She has DP who will look after her and I have siblings, but DM and I are closer and I would have been looking after her had I been at home. Also as the time has gotten nearer she has been more honest about being nervous.
I started a new job last week and my manager isn't in because they have flown home to be with their mum who is having an operation... I think this is what has tipped me over the edge.
I'm just feeling overwhelmed with emotions and guilt and not sure whether to pay for a last minute flight to go home. I'd realistically only be able to stay for a week which part of me feels like would be worse for both of us, I know that DM misses me a lot, but I would do it. Taking time off from work wouldn't be an issue. We aren't due to go home for a planned visit until late next year.
WWYD?