Anxiety about leaving my 1 year old

[MinnieMouse32]

Hiya
Context: My child is currently 13 months. Im a SAHM currently and have an amazing support system made up of very hands on partner (dad to my child), grandparents who see my child regularly etc etc

Im 25 and feel like ive missed out a chunk of my 20s with the pandemic and pregnancy, mat leave.
So my friends urged me to book onto their Krakow city break next year. I am looking forward to it but I keep having these intense thoughts about if something bad were to happen to me whilst I am out the country away from my child. My partner is absolutely amazing, couldnt ask for a better Dad, so its not that im worried about him looking after her. Im more nervous about me leaving her. Is this normal? How can I get away from the anxiety around leaving the country?
It's making me think will I just last minute not want to go with my friends.
Please help!!!
-Stressed out mama

Sorry you've had no replies. It's been 11 years since my last 1year old!
But yes I get it 100%. Motherhood is really stressful, guilt can creep up on you. Plus your confidence can shrink imo as your world shrinks to feeding, playing and cleaning. I used to have actual nightmares I'd left the kids.

I'd say maybe do some trial goings-out between now and then, start small and then maybe a night away somewhere more local?

Totally normal! You should go on your trip if you want to go. You deserve to have some fun. You will feel guilty, but that is just part of motherhood, and you can have all the cuddles when you get back