To crave connection

[Lilabelle22]

So I have a few friends. But I really crave deep connection. Mostly with other females. I have a baby and a toddler and talk to other mums at toddler groups but find it disheartening when next time I go it's like they don't remember me or anything about what we spoke about last time whereas I can remember everything.

It's almost like a get girl crushes on people and wish it was reciprocated. Id love to exchange numbers with people or make more meaningful friendships but feel like people would think I'm weird.

Sometimes I go away from meeting friends or groups feeling worse because I haven't presented well or made flowing convo like I wish I had. I just crave being understood and met on my level and wish I could find deeper connections. Is this possible?

AIBU to feel this way?

Friendships with deep connections always tend to end up quite toxic IMO

@MollieMarie thats an interesting point

I didn’t make any close friends until the kids started school, maybe playground at pickup will be where you find friends soon.

I'm the same. I have school age kids now and feel like all the friendships I've made in the last 15 years have been really superficial. My only deep friendships are those that I made in school or uni. Sadly I live in a different country now. Sorry I don't have any advice. Are parents just too busy to make new friends? Sometimes I feel it's because the women I meet already have friends and family that fill that need for them?