Illegally taking my child and his friend to "exercise" together in a swampy park in January, while half their class were permitted an education in a classroom.
At least the playgrounds weren't padlocked up for 3.5 months that time 🙄
Feeling like a constant failure for being unable to teach my children myself; professionals who've worked with them due to their SENs have agreed it was a hiding to nothing. No other social interaction for 6 months because of the restrictions, both legal and others' self-imposed extras.
I burned out of anger, and the inert lethargy of 2021 has passed, but I still don't feel emotions like excitement. Not 100% Covid related as there's been several dollops of other life-shit this year on top, but basically don't assume that anything nice will happen until it does actually happen because there's a 75% chance that it'll get fucked up.
I'm sad I never saw MiL again. We attempted to see her in 2021 in a shit show of changing travel restrictions, but care home restrictions meant the last time the DCs and I could see her was late 2019 and social isolation, and neglected healthcare accelerated her decline and made the final 28 months of her life much poorer than they needed to be.
I've come off fairly lightly compared to so, so many, but it doesn't mean my feelings aren't valid.
You can not turn society off and play with the switch and expect it to be consequence free. But pointing that out in 2020 and much of 2021 just resulted in being called a Granny Killer and Selfish.