DS is 3 1/2. Always been a shit sleeper, occasionally we will go through phases where he sleeps the night (normally lasts a few days) and then we go back into waking frequently during the night.
The last week he has woken every single hour and screamed until we go into him. He has an long hook lock on his door so he can see out but can't get out if that makes sense (he can scale any stairgate and we have open stairs so it's not safe to let him wonder!) we have tried having this unlocked but he just tries to go downstairs rather than come into us which makes it dangerous.
DH and I both work full time and are exhausted, just fucking exhausted. We try and bring him in with us but he doesn't settle as he wants his own room. He basically wants one of us sat in the room with him all night. Not only are we miserable and shattered but so is DS he is so winey and shitty during the day because he is exhausted and I can't take it anymore.
Tonight I left him to tantrum and cry. I went into him said mummy and daddy are sleeping as it's bedtime and left. He's cried for 20 mins and is now laying by the door drifting off.
I feel like a terrible terrible mum, but it's getting to the point we are all loosing our tempers with each other and DH and I are snapping at each other constantly.
I'm so tied, my mental health is in a dark pit and I just don't know what else I can do anymore.
Anyway, this was a long ramble so I apologise and guess I'm being unreasonable even posting it but in need of some sort of reassurance.
To confirm though DS is perfectly safe, we have a camera monitor so can see exactly where he is at all times and our room is opposite with the door open so he can see the bed from his room.