26 weeks today, currently on bed rest as I have pre eclampsia, told I had gestational diabetes today. I have PGP and sciatic nerve pain so can hardly walk. I'm so miserable.
I don't know if depression in pregnancy is a thing? I had it before but it was under control. I know you can get postnatal depression but nobody talks about it during pregnancy?
I'm so alone, I can't do anything as I'm on bed rest and my partner goes to work so I'm at home on my own all day. I can't use the car as my partner used it for work, I try and go for a walk everyday and I do well at this but it's always on my own. Nobody comes to visit me, they all know I'm at home on my own. I don't ever get a text or a call asking how I am? Even though I'd do that for them and did do so but I've stopped now that I see nobody else makes the effort.
I talk to my sisters most days in the group chat but they both work full time so don't really have the time to come and see me which I understand. But there are people that don't work (parents, in laws ect) or they're off work currently yet I don't see anyone. I'm finding things really difficult and feel like I have this massive weight on my shoulders I can't shift. I want support, even if that's just a text message but I don't really get that. It makes me so scared for when the baby is here that I'll have postnatal depression. I'm in a really dark place at the moment, I have no motivation for anything, I cry all the time and I just feel so so sad all the time. I've tried to get in contact with my mental health consultant but I don't have a contact number for them so have asked my community midwife if they could get them to call me but they never called.
I've realised how little support I have since being pregnant and can see peoples true colours more. I don't really have any friends, I have a few people I talk to online but that's as far as it goes and it's not often. I don't want to bombard people with my problems.