I am so miserable...all the time!

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I wasn't sure what topic would be more suitable for this so if anyone knows, please let me know.

I have name changed.

I have been feeling anxious and sad for about 5 months. There are a number of reasons that I couldn't be feeling like this but I can't pinpoint a specific thing.

I'm struggling to wake up in the mornings and when I do eventually wake up, the thought of facing the day makes me cry. Smiling feels alien to me. I feel like I'm constantly thinking, thinking about anything and everything. I always look like my eyes have glazed over and I'm on another planet. I can't concentrate at work, my house looks awful and I look awful.

I am quite isolated as I don't have any family outside of my household or any friends to talk to which is why I'm posting on here.

What is wrong with me? Will this ever go away? Will I ever feel normal again?

I don't feel suicidal because everytime those types of thoughts enter my head, I imagine my little boy without his Mom and its wipes those thoughts away. I just wish I could be like everyone else, making my family bigger, looking forward to Christmas, socialising and seeing family.

Have you got a partner and extended family?
Xxx

How old is your son? I only ask since I’ve been feeling the same lately and I’m sure it’s to do with the monotony of life with very small children….

So sorry to hear you’re feeling like this, OP . You can definitely get better and you don’t have to feel like this…have you spoken to your GP about how you’re feeling? It sounds like you’re suffering from depression. Would you feel comfortable saying what you’ve said here to your doctor?

My son is 6. I have a partner but he isn't much help at the moment. No extended family really, non that are interested in my wellbeing anyway.

I'm so sick of feeling miserable. Crying causes me to feel so worn out and I can't see an end in sight.

I have spoke with GP previously and was told to self refer for CBT but me being the unproductive, overthinking, lazy person that I am, didn't get round to doing it.

Anxiety and depression? I’m no expert. I’m sure others will come on soon- but I would say speak to a doctor.

To be honest though if you’ve no friends and family, you have a child, you work, there’s no time for you or your chores I can see why you would feel down. 💐

Are you able to tackle one room at a time? Declutter, wipe over and tidy it for example? Would you have some time to do that, even if it’s only 20/30 mins a night- it would make a difference. If you think about everything, all at once it’ll seem unmanageable, you’ll get overwhelmed and end up doing nothing as it’s all just too much.

@Suzi888 the house could probably be whipped into shape quite quickly because I have to do a certain amount of chores to ensure that my son can live in a nice environment. Its just not to the standard I'm comfortable with when I'm feeling myself.

I do feel depressed but then get so frustrated with myself for being down in the dumps all the time which is counter productive because it makes me more depressed.

I feel like everyone around me have things to look forward to. They have loving families, friends they trust, children, can cope with pets ect and I'm just stuck in a rut. I would absolutely love to have another child but my OH says no, I would love to have close friends but they've all let me down in some way or another so I no longer trust them. I need to feel more motivated in life. I can't let me son think that this is normal life.