How do you discipline yourself?

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I have bipolar type 2, currently being denied access to my medication so and relying totally on holistic methods to try and keep myself well.

Obviously though with my mood being extremely low I really lack discipline or motivation. When you’re suicidal you don’t want to do anything at all. I need to be strong in exercising everyday and eating healthily as these do make me feel slightly better but I’m struggling to kick my ass into gear.

Does anyone have any tips on how they stay motivated and force themselves to be up and active?

I’m sorry but who are you? Who do you think you are questioning my medical situation?

Oh ffs. If you don't want people to ask questions then don't post on a discussion forum.

Thing is I don’t enjoy anything. I’m only still alive because I don’t want to upset my kids and my husband that’s literally it. I don’t have any hobbies or and motivation because I don’t want to be here anymore.

You told me what I said wasn’t true and I told you to go away.

No, I didn't say it wasn't true. I said it doesn't sound true, as in not the whole truth.

Do you not think someone might find it odd that a woman with a serious mental illness would be denied medication all of a sudden?!

I get myself to do things by only agreeing with myself to do the absolute minimum and counting that as a success.

I put a toothbrush in my mouth.
I lock the door and walk to the end of my driveway
I take one bite of a safe food
I put on clean underwear
I turn on the dishwasher

90% of the time I will manage a lot more, but if I don’t that’s okay, and I’m still better off than if I do nothing.

You literally said it wasn’t true. You also patronised me by asking if I was sure that’s what happened. Just because I’m unwell doesn’t mean it’s ok to talk to me like im a child.

I think for me routine is key, and not spending too many days in the house in one go or I start to over think going out and about and it feels like more effort. I try to get up around the same time each day no matter what I'm planning on doing and have breakfast. Then I use my notes app on my phone to set myself some goals. My rule for these is they have to be achievable and realistic. I also include easy win goals like making the bed/ getting dressed etc as well as things that are maybe harder to motivate myself towards like working through a pile of dishes or going out for a message. Getting to tick the small goals off first is nice and helps me feel like I don't actually have that much more to do to have ticked off everything for that day. I also agree rewards with myself. Like if I get the bathroom cleaned then tonight I'll have a nice bath with candles and use my new bath soak. Or I'll tidy my bedroom and then light a candle and watch a movie and paint my nails before bed. I try to set my goals depending on how I'm feeling that day, sometimes I know it'll be a slow day so I set small goals, other days I feel better so I'll tackle bigger ones.

This isn't true. I've seen this happen a number of times in my workplace where people are bounced between services, end up seeing noone and meds are stopped with inadequate reviewing. This happens regularly and it's a real failing of the system so I don't see a reason to question op.

Op can you write directly to the psychiatrist who deals with your medication and request an appointment urgently? Or do you have a mh support worker who could fight your corner for you? I've found I can get appointments made as a support worker quicker than some of the people I work with can as patients which really shouldn't make a jot of difference. But might help you feel less on your own arguing it?