Help!

[Naq]

First time posting here.

Im fed up guys! The reality of this is it , is hitting hard.

I have 2 beautiful children 14 and 8 who are my world. A partner of 20 years and a lovely home.
I work in the NhS and I am struggling hard!!! I’ve been hospital based for 11 years then recently moved to community and I am really struggling to adapt.
working full time, running a home, dinner, washing etc is really hard!

Having done shifts and mainly nights for most of my career it’s such a change and I really am getting overwhelmed! I physically and mentally don’t seem to cope well anymore!
Im thinking of speaking to my GP about how I’m feeling, as I’m wondering if I’m suffering with some anxiety and low mood but then I shake myself and tell myself to just suck it up and get on with it!

I feel completely miserable!

I think about returning to hospital but the reason for the move was because it was so busy and unsafe that I was worried and frustrated most shifts! Community just brings its own set of anxieties and I don’t seem to be able to switch off from it!
Helpp! Am I going insane!!?

I had quite a crisis of confidence when I hit the menopause. Is that something that might be a factor for you ?

hey, I’m 35 I don’t think so just yet.

Please speak to your GP. You shouldn’t feel like this. It almost certainly sounds like you need to be signed off for a bit and to talk through options for coping with the anxiety - CBT or medication most likely.

Honestly I think community work is really hard. I know wards are a really intense environment and sometimes really unsafe but community work brings a lot of personal responsibility that's hard if you've always shared things with a team (so it's hard to switch off because you know someone else isn't going to be looking over that patient while you're not there)

Have you considered a different ward maybe?

I think of going back as your right I’m able to hand over my patients and not worry worry that things may have got missed when I’m hospital based, But almost feel a sense of failure for not being able to cope? Will I look like that if I go back?

I also feel like I’m at work so much on community and that I’m never around to do the family things I have been so used to doing.
I feel a little lost and not me anymore, but that’s right I guess when you become a mother you end up being bottom of the pecking order… I’m constantly shattered!
Am I just feeling sorry for myself and just need to get to grips that the reality is this is life and get used to it?

What worries me is I’ll find it harder to go back once I’ve been off for a bit!

Not a failure at all! Honestly I think we all have a strength in either community or wards. I'm community, my mum works wards. We both feel the others job is harder. Whenever I'm on wards I just think how hard it is. I also absolutely couldn't manage the long shifts ward staff do. It's not a failure to do what you're best at