To be fucking terrified

[Scaredtosleep1]

Apologies, I’ve posted on here before for advice but I changed my username since then and I can’t find my old post because I don’t remember what it was. Just starting a new one as it’s been a few weeks anyway.

im having awful problems right now. I’ve never had any issues with sleeping until a few months ago and now it’s horrendous- i keep having awful nightmares. It started occasionally but now it’s almost every night. I always dream of something horrible or scary, like I’m being chased or attacked, it’s different each time but it’s really horrible vivid nightmares, then I wake up and can’t move or yell but I can see something in my room. I know I’m not really seeing something, it’s just sleep paralysis, but it’s horrific and so scary. Last night I thought I saw a big dark shadow crawling up my bed and I was terrified and couldn’t even scream or move, it was like I was locked in my body. Then I get a horrible sensation where it’s like I’m in a kaleidoscope and everything is colourful and flashy and bright, and I get the most horrific screaming in my ears. Then I wake up properly and the screaming takes half an hour or so to stop, and then I usually have the worst migraine ever after and I’m usually dripping in sweat, it’s as if I’ve had a shower and jumped straight into bed, I’m soaked from the sweats.

i still live at home, and I’ve spent the last few months on and off screaming the house down at 2 am with these night terrors, but it’s definitely happening a lot more often. My parents are obviously a bit confused and worried, and I’m terrified to go to sleep now. It’s already after 11 and I know I’ll have to fall asleep soon and I just want to cry I’m so scared about it

I’m not over tired and I’m stressed but not really stressed, I’m at university but I’m actually really enjoying it and all these problems started in the summer holidays. I’m happy with my life, my part time job and everything else

i was going to go to the gp but I can’t get an appointment because I’m in Uni everyday and it’s only phone appointments so it’s so difficult to get through, you have to phone 100+ times and all the appointments are fine

i don’t know why I’m posting or what I’m looking for, I’m just absolutely terrified to go to sleep again tonight but obviously I’ll have to, but by 2 I’ll be drenched in sweat, have a splitting migraine and have had at least 2 night mares. my parents are really supportive but I feel so alone with this and I’m actually terrified

hypnagogic Hallucinations can also explain the kaleidoscope effect and can be visual, auditory and sensory. Or a combination of all three. They can also occur in conjunction with sleep paralysis.
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@Scaredtosleep1
I appreciate that you are not religious, neither was I. I was desperate to try anything to make it stop and it worked. There's absolutely no harm in trying. However, after your recent post, it does sound like it could be something medical causing it to happen so good luck with your appointment.

I could write a book. There have been so many truly terrifying experiences over the years but they were particularly bad in my 30's. I experienced the old hag at about 13 years of age which was terrifying but not as bad as it was going to get later in my life. I was physically attacked by an entity and would wake up with deep scratches on my back - I find it hard to believe they were self inflicted due to the location of them. My covers would be pulled off, my bed would shake Then I started to have more supernatural activity like things moving and lights switching on and off during the evening when I had visitors who also witnessed it. I have had so many strange experiences and even managed to get the name of one of the Demons and have conversations with them. They would talk to me when I was in a half state of consciousness and would tell me they were dead. It's totally fucked up and it's quite unpleasant writing it down as I really want to forget that it ever happened. Whenever I hear of someone struggling though, I feel like I have to at least let them now how I have dealt with it, even if they think I'm a complete nutter, it doesn't really matter. Time to pray now!

The first time I experienced it, I was terrified. I tried so hard to wake up, but it wouldn't happen. I felt a presence in the room with me, but my vision was affected and I couldn't focus. I could sense them walking around the room, wanting to do me harm. Sometimes it feels like the room is full of people talking to me, but I can't see them properly and feel like I'm in some kind of time delay. I don't get it so much these days. When it does happen, I'm able to tell myself that I'll eventually wake up from it, which calms me down and then I go back to sleep.

I also get exploding head syndrome and hear weird, garbled conversations when I'm falling asleep, hypnogoue hallucinations, which I actually enjoy, as the subjects are just so bizarre.

I recently woke up and saw my partner standing at the end of the bed in some kind of psychedelic form, (difficult to describe), and he wasn't even home that night.

I get sleep paralysis also, not as often as I used though, weirdly I got it more when I was in my late teens, early 20s when at uni. I think it was my brain over working.

I get night terrors more and I see things that seem so so real, a person sat on the end of my bed, a child sleeping next to me in my bed, things that look like drones hovering over my head, I joke with people that I'm being watched by aliens.

If I get overworked, or especially sleep paralysis I echo other comments and just tell myself 'stop being silly, keep calm' and try and relax my body in a meditative way, like you would with yoga breathing. Could you try some of these meditation methods to get yourself relaxed?

I hope you find help though, it's awful.