11 years ago I was extremely anxious as a teenager and not sleeping. I was hedonistic and took drugs and drank a lot and slept around. It was basically on reflection pretty normal teenage behaviour. Because I couldn't sleep, I took an over dose of a sleeping tablet that you can just get in Holland and Barrett. I panicked and went to a&e. After this I went to the GP and was refferred for counselling and a psychiatrist appointment. I met with a CPN and she said she felt I had bipolar. I used to think I could hear voices when I was stressed and tired. A psychiatrist said the same thing. I was prescribed quentiapine but took it for less then ten days.
Since then I've had the occasional bout of anxiety but no mania or psychosis at all.
I've been married for a long time and with my husband for ten years. He worked in mental health with really sick patients his whole life and doesn't feel I have bipolar. Neither do I.
I do feel it's affected my treatment from HCPs as there is such a stigma attached to it.
I have been referred for counselling for post natal anxiety and I raised that I wanted this reviewed/ off my record. They have arranged for me to meet with the psychiatrist to discuss it. I can't believe she still works in the trust to be honest! It's been so long.
I am really worried it's going to feel like a character assassination when I have the review. Aibu to be nervous? Is it an okay process to go through?