I fucking love my husband and the life we have built! I genuinely do!
we’ve been together since I was a teen!
he’s an awesome man! We did everything together, festivals, travelling and finally built a family. We’re the epiphany of perfect!
in his older age (since the loss of his mum and dad at aged 9) he’s become grumpy or depressed I’m not sure which!?
We have two wonderful children who he never wants to spend time with. Shift work doesn’t help! he is an attentive dad at times when he’s not tired (which is not very often)
we’ve just got a dog that I thought would bring us all together. Certainly knew it would for me and the kids at their pre teenage years.
So that worked!
He just seems so miserable. Wants to take the kids to the pub all the time. Let’s train the dog to be a perfect pub dog (at the pub) Something I’d have loved in my twenties but actually I want to go on long walks!
renovating my daughters bedroom, he literally wants to throw EVERYTHING away! I’m there loving going throughout her school books!
he literally wants to throw everything away. Including cards from his recently passed mum. Something that I’d have held on to pass on to the grandkids!
i feel like he’d throw out our whole life in a skip if he could!
I don’t know if it’s being me over sentimental or him just not giving a shit about us.
Hes lost both his parents.
He’s got demons, I get that. But to have a throw away life makes me so sad.
God forbid of anything happened to me tomorrow I’d be made to be forgotten!!
do I leave him?
I want so much more that this!!