I am asking here as I am not sure if I might be overthinking, so wanted to get some unbiased views from MN on whether IABU to feel worried/like I am maybe being scapegoated for this at work.
I apologise as this is long but I am pregnant and really stressed/worried so would love some input.
Background
I work for a large multinational holding company. The company owns several companies in the UK and in Canada.
I am part of a specialist team who operate in different fields. I focus on fire risk management, other members of the team include a security expert, electrical expert, leasing expert etc.
As the business has lots of different companies the structure is there are local teams for fire risk management, security, electrics, leasing etc. but they are not usually very experienced, it saves costs at a local level, they manage 80% of the work and then for the 20% which are larger projects or big changes they consult with my team. So we act as internal consultants.
A few months ago it was brought to my attention one of the UK based companies wanted to redo their entire fire risk management strategy and their local team brought me in to support. My role was never to create the document just give guidance on how to lay it out, what they needed to include and how they can go about creating a new one.
The first draft was shot down by that companies head of health and safety, so I was asked to get more involved to get the project over the line.
I co-created a second version and it was pitched last week and again shot down, I was in this meeting and the reasons being given for it not being accepted were ridiculous. For example I was asked ‘why is there no mention of mitigating for people adding fuel to any potential fires’ and 'What about animals, there is no mention on how to risk assess the impact of a dog for example underfoot, they'd be a trip hazard' (fyi this is a business where they don't allow dogs on site)
A normal fire risk strategy focuses on the most common and likely risks associated with a fire in a certain location, the plan would be 80000 pages long if we had to include every possible, silly thing someone or something could do to make things worse. There is no fire risk assessment in the land that mentions how to stop someone pouring petrol on an open fire because there has to be some element of common sense (unless you work at a petrol station that is!)
I pushed back during this meeting but it was ignored by the head of department.
I raised it with my line manager who told me not to worry about it and helped set some next steps, so we will push back on 90% of the suggestions but maybe find a way to accept 10% and see if that keeps them sweet.
However I have just had a message from someone in a related team giving me a heads up that the head of health and safety has gone above my head and started making noise to snr people at the holding company, he has been asked about my performance and why this project wasn’t completed months ago, why its being done this way etc.
My line manager doesn’t seem to be worried about it, as the first thing I did was message him asking if he knew about the head of health and safety escalating this (he did not) but I am starting to get a nagging feeling I might be scapegoated for this entire situation. There is now talk about why I didn’t notice the old strategy needed updating (not my job, I do what I am consulted on, I don’t go and proactively find issues iyswim)
It’s not my job to create the local plans, the feedback given is so silly it can’t even logistically be included in the next iteration and I am just getting more and more stressed about it.
I am due to start maternity leave in 4 weeks time and genuinely don’t know what to do, this has caused me a lot of stress over the past few weeks and I am worried its having an impact on my pregnancy. I have been waking up at 2 am most mornings worrying about it.
But I don’t know whether on the face of it I am over reacting and should listen to my LM and not be worried about it.
I haven’t been there 2 years yet, but once back from mat leave I would have crossed that threshold. But part of me worries if I make too much noise it could negatively impact my return to work, I don’t think they’re stupid enough to get rid of someone who is pregnant and had great feedback until this incident, but I can imagine them making it harder for me on my return if this goes south, which is why I am conflicted of going to HR or anything like that, especially being so close to having time off for mat leave.
So would you be worried in my shoes, any advice if so? TIA