Im terrified to go to sleep, like absolutely terrified. Previously I loved sleeping but a few months ago I started having occasional bad dreams and sleep paralysis- I was terrified at first but thought it was a one odd random thing, but now I get it all the time and it’s getting more and more regular. I’m terrified to go to sleep because of it
usually what happens is I fall asleep and very quickly I have a nightmare and I sort of half wake up- I can see elements of the nightmare I was having in my room (usually like a dark figure) but I’m not really awake properly and it’s like I’m being pulled through a kaleidoscope. Everything is all coloured and shiney but I can see a dark figure/scary face over me, and while all this is happening I’ve got the most horrendous screeching and screaming in my ears. Then I suddenly snap out of it and wake up and I’m usually shaking like a leaf because it’s so frightening. I know it’s just sleep paralysis and there’s nothing in my room, but bloody hell it’s horrible and the first few times it happened I would scream the house down for my parents. Obviously I don’t do that anymore! But I still feel terrified when I wake up and I’m so scared to go to sleep now
I’m a Uni student and I’m in fourth year, so obviously stressed out with deadlines, dissertation things and exams and I think that’s causing all the sleep problems in the first place. I don’t watch scary movies or things that will freak me out.
its currently 3 am and I’m trying to force myself to stay awake because I’m petrified of what will happen if I fall asleep. I hate this so so much. I know nobody online can fix me but I just feel so lonely and upset about it all 😢 x