I've not always got on with my mum. Throughout my childhood she put spending money on cigarettes above being able to buy me nice clothes, go away on holiday. Every dream I've ever had, she said that I would never achieve it and has constantly criticised me. She put making her now husband (who treats me horribly) happy above making sure I'm ok and when I've gone to her with poor mental health and feelings of suicide, I was told to sort myself out. Throughout my childhood I was told I was too big, laughed at because I couldn't run fast, told I couldn't sing if I was singing in the house and just other things, generally about my appearance. She still sometimes comments on clothes in wearing that show my fat belly or that I'm wearing my hair in a style that doesn't suit me. She regularly brings up my life decisions that haven't worked out.
I've ended up heavily resenting my mum and myself and my self confidence is low and has been for all of my life.
I eventually snapped a few years back and told my mum that all she's done (giving her some examples) was unacceptable and since then I still get the odd negative comment about my appearance, but she's trying. I didn't get an apology but i just can't seem to forget what a complete and utter shit she's been. My thoughts over the weekend when I'm not busy just go back to fear of how my mother is going to ruin my life.
I can't seem to move on and I'm filled with hatred when I think of all the things she's done, but how can I get over this?
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FattyAirways · 08/10/2022 15:28
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