Seriously. Odd I know . I’ve always struggled to make proper meaningful friendships . I think I have a combination of an ND personality ( I’m nice , bubbly but I can’t ‘take’ to people and trust them because I always feel like I have to act a little bit, I feel like I’m a bit odd ( I am odd ) and therefore try to match their personality rather than be me and it’s tiring so i tend to let friendships fade before they start because it’s easier . I also had a really complex and challenging childhood so I spent much of that looking after people who needed me rather than socialising like your average kid . So I’m basically a bit of an introvert . I’m not unhappy , but I’m a total loner apart from my kids and partner . Anyway, I recently started studying something I’ve always wanted to , it’s something that’s quite intellectual , creative and I met this girl , my age , no kids , different ethnic background , but we clicked so much ! We have laughed and chatted and done things together like visiting shows and stuff I’d never have gone to before . She’s a bit …different too , broken but healed like me I suppose , she’s much more confident and open but not in a way that makes me feel overwhelmed and we never really talk about us but about our common interest and we are reliable , we message every day and we always turn up because we’ve told each other we will. We talk about quite personal stuff, bodily aches and pains ,having down days emotionally etc .We go for a drink sometimes and wander galleries together which I’ve never done with anyone. I think , at 34 years of age I may have found a proper best friend 🤩 I really don’t wanna lose this lady , it’s been a slow year of getting close but I feel like we should always have known each other . Is this weird? Is this a lucky thing? A second chance at having a proper friend or is it just our common interest? Im getting a bit confused really. It doesn’t change anything about how I’ll be around her because I’ve always been myself and that’s really unusual , I say things like ‘I’m anxious today ‘ or ‘I don’t like myself today ‘ and shes just as open and shes told me all sorts of things too so it feels safe and mutual. I’ve never met someone female I felt so connected with. We usually end up in fits of laughter and get on with what we’re doing and have a really good day. I think I have a ‘best friend ‘ a ‘close friend ‘ would you agree?