Now, I want to start this post by saying I know I may sound like a complete spoilt brat, and I just want to make it clear it isn't about the stuff, it's about the empty promises and the principle of it all. I'm pregnant and very hormonal so I know this may heighten things.
I'm currently half way through my pregnancy, from the very beginning my parents have promised to buy use a pram (we never asked nor expected this) but they promised due to the fact they did the same for my sister. We found a cheap one from smyths that we liked, so I sent the link LIKE THEY ASKED ME TOO. This was a few months back, I said there was no rush to get it but they insisted that they would be buying said pram in august/September. I honestly didn't think much about it because I've been let down so many times before I've kind of just been expecting it. They got my sister a £2000 pram when she was pregnant.
I've been to my parents a few times recently, they never make the visit to come and see me, ever. We live about half an hour away. Anyway, they have been moaning none stop about having no money, despite recently going on a very expensive holiday, spending £1000 in a week, booking multiple concerts, booking 3 holidays for next year. They have money, more money than they have ever had. Yet there has still been a lot of moaning about having no money, which may I add is a little bit of a kick in the teeth when we genuinely have no money. This past week my dad said about the pram, how they didn't know how they could afford it but said they would still get it for us. I just said it was fine and I would get a free one from marketplace but there was still the promise that they would buy this pram. The one we wanted wasn't too expensive, we went out of our way to find a cheap one we liked. It was around £280. We don't have the money for it so as stupid as it is I was relying on their promise. In order to buy my sisters pram a few years back they put themselves into debt for it (I would never expect that) they also bought her an expensive tv at the same time.
Anyway, on Thursday they said they weren't getting us the pram. Major kick in the teeth really, I ended up getting one for free from marketplace so it's fine really, I guess it's just the principle of it all. Our child is already being treated differently to their other grandchildren, we've had nothing (again we don't expect anything) when they have bought near enough everything for my siblings, my aunties also bought stuff for my siblings and again we have had nothing. I don't care about being bought things, I don't want anything it's just the principle and the promises of it all. It truly breaks my heart in two that I mean so little to them and that now my child does too. I don't care how im treated but I won't put up with someone treating my child this way, I would never want them to feel how I have felt growing up, I have no problem cutting them out of my life if that's how it'll be.
We don't have a tv, ours broke, they know this and bought themselves a second tv and bragged about it. Yet though bought my sister a new tv coz hers wasn't big enough. Our car recently completed packed out and had to be scrapped, they don't make the effort to see us despite having a brand new car and us not having one. They expect me to go down there and look after their 3 dogs while they're going on holiday and to all these concerts (they stay away for a few days after); they expect me to travel on public transport for 2 hours to get there and 2 hours back and yet I don't get paid for it and I don't get a thanks either; saying that I don't even get asked to do it I just get told I'm doing it! They book these things before even asking me!
I don't know if I'm being unreasonable. I know I'm expecting too much from people who I have never got anything from, I guess you hang onto that thought that things will change or can change but I know deep down nothing will ever change. They've never been great to me really but I've forgiven and sometimes I question why because I'm always treated the same. I've done everything on my own my whole life and I guess pregnancy is no different, it's so lonely, really lonely and I just know how alone I'm going to be once my baby is here. I have support from my husband but that's it, and he has to go back to work. It's just hard, really hard and I don't think I've stopped crying about it for the past 3 days, I'm crying writing this now! I think I know the best thing for me and my baby is to walk away but it's hard when that's all you have, I always feel some obligation to be there for them, despite them never being there for me and I don't know why.
I'm sorry this post is so long and so moanie, there is a lot more I could add but it would never end! I don't really know what to do anymore, I just feel lost