To want to move/Feel disappointed

[Noname234]

This is really hard to sum up in one post but I just feel so down and don’t have anyone to talk to.
we were living in a small 2 bed flat and paying very cheap rent but whilst I was pregnant with our 2nd child last year DH got a new job and doubled his salary, we decided to try our best to get moved before Christmas… looking back I wasn’t in as much of a rush and could have taken more time but we ended up moving out of town due to the rental market being crazy busy, I knew this was a risk as I am close with my family and have always lived in the same place but there wasn’t a huge amount of options at the time and we found a four bed house which was a lot nicer and bigger then anything we had found near us so we decided to go for it. In my head I thought we will just move back after the two year contract finishes if we don’t like it but now my 4 year old is in school here and settled I just have this overwhelming sense of regret and guilt.
I have briefly discussed with DH and
he doesn’t want to be back in the town and still wants a more village location but I feel he isn’t effected as much by the move because he frequently visits London to socialise and see his kid’s there while I’m at home feeling super lonely. Just a bit of background we both were working from home during covid and then I fell pregnant “planned” but a bit quicker than expected and then I had a really rough pregnancy so at the time we moved it was just in the middle of all of that and I was sort of ready for a change of scenery. Also I feel like we have had this huge rise in income and just been really silly with it as our rent is so high and I’m on maternity leave and everything is just a huge struggle.
I can’t help feeling we should have just moved somewhere mediocre in the same town (with family support) and saved for a deposit to buy. Even once I’m off Mat leave we still won’t be able to save much.

1. AIBU to wish we just hadn’t moved
2. Do I look at moving back to the town now (we’d have to break out rental contract which we’d be charged for)
3. do I wait it out here for the next year to see if things improve (in the meantime I feel like ds will be even more settled in school)
4. Has anyone else moved and then moved back

Just to add I feel really disappointed at the financial situation we are also in and that I’m going to have to return to work earlier than planned because of our choices in paying more rent etc. I just wish we hadn’t rushed it. I have a 4 month old ds and I just feel like a rubbish mum, I thought the extra money would mean I’d get a real quality Mat leave with him and be able to enjoy it but it’s been full of worry, anxiety and depression.

And the fact we don’t do anything as a couple, our relationship just seems very stagnant.
And I also have no friends, maybe one that actually bothers. I feel like since most haven’t got kids they just don’t click with me and any new friends I try to make just doesn’t get any further than the chit chat. I just feel so uncomfortable and out of my comfort zone at the moment.