in the last 3 months my mental health has plummeted. I feel like my anxiety has passed a border into actual paranoia, but I’m not sure?
I think things like
- Everyone’s taking about you and there’s a good possibility you’ll end up in hospital, probably detained under the mental health act
- Your body is failing you, you’re dehydrated & you’re going to pass out.
What’s even more bizarre is that I almost convince myself of things I know are impossible, and it’s hard to talk myself out of it. for example, I had repeatedly fainted a few months ago and was taken to A&E. I had an abdominal scan which was clear. Despite this, and despite the fact that I have had consistent periods, have the coil and would have been around 6 months pregnant then…. I just couldn’t let the idea go. It made me extremely distressed and only when I passed a reasonable “due date” did I stop worrying.
then I worried about physical symptoms (that are obviously anxiety!) we’re things like MS or a cardiac problem.
I worry that I am somehow involved in crimes that are reported on the news… regardless of location.
These thoughts are worse in the morning and by evening I seem to have calmed myself down and realise I was being silly. It goes from one thing to the next…
ive been off work with anxiety for a month and it’s just getting worse. I’m on antidepressants, receiving CBT and try all the self help I can… early nights, fresh air, eating hearty meals, trying to stop the worry spiral.
im just feeling hopeless