Advice please...

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First off I feel awful and so upset for even writing this.

My kids have been on one today and the last straw for me was when the youngest decided to tip out the dogs water bowl all over the kitchen floor as i was quickly filling the dishwasher to put on. I waited till they were out in the hall and screamed very loudly.

The youngest was oblivious but eldest was a bit shocked I think and I gave him a cuddle as soon as it happened.

I've got a million thoughts in my mind.
Will the neighbours have heard?
If Yes will they phone Ss?
Will this affect the eldest?

I feel absolutely awful 😓

😯just lie on the floor and calm down. X

Christ alive

Of course they won't call SS and a scream won't impact your eldest child

Your anxiety might though

It's fine.

You could’ve done a lot worse 😳
You had a HUGE spider and you’re terrified of em!

I remember having tough days - mine were 12 months apart and were always fighting - about 30 fights every day 😄 I had to put them in the car one day (safely strapped in their car seats) and come back into the house for five minutes to stare into the middle distance 😁 either that or go insane

Be kind to yourself! You’re only human and it’s pretty important your kids see that. You’ll have a bigger detrimental affect on them if the think you’re a robot who doesn’t feel negative emotions. Not sure how old your eldest is but just explain that you were feeling angry.

Just tell you child you saw a spider!

You screamed when your kids were out of the room? Well you are much more controlled than many! Not a problem, you are massively overthinking this. I take it your dc are quite young and at times a pita!
Stop beating yourself up, you've done nothing wrong, get the kids into bed and have a cup of tea or glass of wine. Well done for getting through another day of parenthood

Thanks everyone, my anxiety is through the roof recently. This year has definitely been the worst ever.

Eldest dc is 6 and is going through a phase of not listening or doing as he's told. Youngest dc is 18 months and is in at Everything!

I remember being at that stage, it's hard. Generally I would try to lock myself in the toilet whilst I counted to 10 or however long it took but sometimes I had moments like that. My two are now 29 and 26 and it does not seem to have affected them.

Scream if you have to. This mothering stuff is relentlessly hard at times

I'm just thankful we're detached! I've lost it many times, including with DH, DMogs and DDog ... no one has arrived yet 😋