It’s our 25th this year. We married young by modern standards, not long out of uni. Back then I thought we would have a party for our 25th with people who came to the wedding.
Sadly we have lost so many relatives. My side particularly in the last 4 years. Most of my parents siblings were child free or not close to their DC so no close cousins. We seem to have lost touch with a lot of friends and my best Uni friend ghosted me 4 years ago when I was suffering bereavement and struggling with SN child (I had supported her through the loss of a parent so the timing stung).
I do have some lovely friends now but made them when we moved to our current city two years after our wedding but feel so sad about everyone we have lost over the years. Added to the that I feel rootless due to army brat upbringing.
This feeling of loss, and feeling inadequate that I don’t have a big gang of school and uni friends, is making what should be a happy occasion feel sad. Please tell me IABU and should be grateful for a happy marriage.