What should I do? I really messed up

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I am a postgraduate student, single mum, working 3 jobs. One of my jobs is a youth worker which I do 3 times per week, the other is a delivery driver for a local takeaway once a week and the other I do delivery driving for a healthy meal company every Saturday morning.

For the healthy meal company I have done every Saturday morning since January with two occasions when I could do it (once I had covid so no notice and second time it was my 30th and gave them plenty of notice).

I have to travel 36 miles to collect the meals, once I have them I am given 45 p per mile and £10 an hour. So 36 miles of my travel isn't paid which is my own fault since I took the job knowing this.

I sat and worked out my schedule this week including course stuff and I think it's going to be too much to take a chunk of time out of every Saturday so decided to quit. I feel awful since the lady that organises everything is absolutely lovely.

I decided that I would give my notice period (no contract whatsoever but want to be decent) in a few weeks. However tonight I have had too much to drink, my friend has been over and the drinks have flowed.

I'm now very nervous about driving tomorrow, if I was to be caught over the limit then my whole career would be out the window not even thinking about my safety and other road users safety.

I have had a quite a bit to drink and doing the online calculator I wouldn't be clear until later tomorrow.

WIBU to just quit first thing tomorrow? I don't need q reference etc but it seems. Really icky thing to do leaving her in the lurch like that. What else can I do though? I can't drive. I've definitely fucked up.

If I'd had 2 bottles of wine my post would read:

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You can certainly handle your booze OP!

I'm paid 45 per mile from moment I leave pick up plus £10 per hour after I leave pick up location.

2 bottles of wine spread out over the afternoon/evening with food, not that unbelievable. Also you do realise there are alcoholics that easily put that away?

But how much do you make on a Saturday? Then less you cost for initial 36 miles. Is it really worthwhile? You can't do tomorrow.

Ring in the morning say your car won't start, tell them you have a mechanic friend coming around later to look at it but it won't be until mid morning and say you'll let them know if you can deliver then even though it'll be later. Ring when you are sober enough to drive.

So you knew you were working tomorrow requiring a drive? And put your head in the sand and got drunk?

Ok

I make about 50/60

if you’ve drank on an empty stomach and drank 2 bottles of wine under 7 hours, frankly you’d be rat arsed. 🤔

I am gonna assume the wine made you come here for advice for something so pointless.

You, by yourself, have not had two bottles of wine and then typed that post and all subsequent replies.

Your head would be in the toilet after two bottles - not on mumsnet
Source: Experience

If you don't want to go tomorrow, fine, you're choosing to let people down, but don't come on here and pretend otherwise.

Alcoholism isn’t based on how much you can drink. It’s based on how much you’re prepared to sacrifice for drink, and losing your license once then risking it a second time absolutely falls into that category.

Look just don't do it. Yes it will be annoying and upset people who were relying on food. But never mind.

You lost your license previously from drink driving?

Now you want to quit your job without working your notice, so you’ve decided to get drunk so you can’t go in.

Sounds like you have some serious growing up to do.

You don’t need to be so snippy and humourless!

You clearly selfishly decided you were quitting anyway and couldn’t be fucked to do it tomorrow. So the decent thing is to give her as much notice as possible - text her now - so that she can sort out cover. I expect you’ll just text in sick tomorrow morning and leave her in the lurch though 🤷🏻‍♀️

OP why bother writing this post with your excuse then? If you can’t be arsed just text her and tell her of say you’re sick. Such a pointless, validation seeking post.

This all comes across as very immature OP.

message her now saying you’re ill so she can at least sort out something. If she’s as lovely as you say she is, she deserves at least that!

You've already left her in the lurch, you can't drive you've already had the alcohol so it is what it is. Ring in sick tomorrow then go back to work give and work your notice. You maybe feel bad about it but there's nothing else you can really do.

Can you just offer to do it in the afternoon once you've sobered up? Then at least the meals will get delivered just later than usual.

right so why lie about feeling awful and guilty etc

Where is this job based? Sounds ideal
For me - I'll take it over for you

Having lost a family friend to someone over the legal alcohol limit that chose to drink and drive, the ONLY choice you have is to not drive.

To even consider doing so just because you dont want to let her down, rather than you don't want to be a risk to others on the roads, beggars belief.

Tell her you are not fit to drive, make your apologies and draw a line under it.

Nothing and I mean nothing, is worth driving over the limit for.

Two bottles of wine all to yourself between 3 and 9pm? Wow that is a lot.
Units wise it's the equivalent of 7.5 pints of lager.