I have always doubted myself and always have moments where I think I can't possibly do something then go ahead and do it and surprise myself. However, this is different. I am a single mum to a 9 year old and have just started a masters degree in social work after getting my honours degree in politics society and policy.
I have been at uni for the past five years and my goal has always been to become a social worker. We had our induction this week though and it is all so overwhelming to the point I really don't know how I will manage.
I sat down yesterday and did my own personalised timetable and I'm literally going to have to be doing uni work 7 days a week just to keep up with the lectures, the tutorials, and the readings. This doesn't even include the assessments or placements which start next term.
On top of that I have work three nights a week (6 - 10) and every Saturday morning as well as having two dogs, a daughter (her after school activities) and a home to run. At interview they said how intense it would be but I honestly wasn't prepared. I feel like I'm going to be in a constant state of stress for the next two and a half years and literally have no life. What if there's a day I just need to relax? I literally can't.
Do I think it's worth it? Yes I think so, it's always something I've wanted to do and I feel excited and hopeful when I think of my future as a social worker but I don't know if it's physically going to be impossible juggling too many balls.
I'd love to stop my Saturday job but I need money as of course postgrads are expensive and there is no funding in Scotland for social work.
Do you think I should quit before I start? Is it doable? Will life just be shit for the next two years? I'm really interested in the subject if that makes a difference.