I was going to post in menopause but not sure its all related to it, plus there doesn't seem to be a huge amount of replies usually ime.
I feel so low. Not all of the time but it's affecting me.
I am peri menopausal.
Started HRT in April due to anxiety which I've never experienced before. I will explain more in a bit.
Periods still, but I was missing them for months(2 or3) so not regular as they used to be.
Also felt some vaginal atrophy. Labia definitely shrinking and all itchy(this has been going on for some time looking back and thought this was thrush).
No other symptoms at all. I'm fit and well , healthy, slim. Eat well, don't smoke. Drink too much I think, which I know will not help anxiety. I mean just wine at home, not going out getting drunk(very occasionally!).
Now I'm finding it very difficult to distinguish between hormonal anxiety/low mood and general life stuff.
I'm finding it very difficult to cope with the DC growing up. I have 4. 2 older and 2.school age.
Older ones at home.
Please be kind and don't say pull yourself together and be glad they are growing up healthy as you have done your job.
I feel a gut wrenching sadness when I look back and think of them being little. I miss it so much.
I love every stage and we still have lots of fun but I feel it's slipping away.
I have invested so much in the children that I cant imagine my life without them around so much.
I have a good job( hate it lol but no option to leave and well paid) a family and a small group of friends. Pets too :)
I have been with my DH a long time. He's overall a good reliable bloke. I love him but, if I'm honest, I don't love him the same any more(is this menopause related?-probably). And I imagine he probably doesn't love me as much any more but does love me and is happy enough.
Most of the time lately he really annoys me. He can be a grumpy fucker, the way he eats, he can be so boring at times. A million things. Some days I feel ok and can smile about these things. Other days I'm so cross I cannot look at him.
We have just been on holiday abroad and I felt a billion times better. No anxiety to speak of. So thats telling I guess.
Oh I also have horrific driving anxiety which I've pretty much had since I passed my test( late learner). Has improved but still bad.
Today it's come to a head as I obviously didn't need to drive while on holiday but now we are home , it's all back on. DC back at school and my stomach is in knots thinking of things I will have to do in the car( or avoid).
So at the end if all of this rant ,do I need to increase my HRT maybe? Prescribed 2 pumps.of oestrogel daily and utrogestron for 14 days.
I've upped my oestrogen in the past 2 or 3 weeks to 3 pumps to see if that helps. Since starting HRT I can't really say I feel better. Not necessarily worse but certainly not the way I hoped I'd feel. I'm sure sure how to tweak really.
I don't want to go back to the GP as although the initial Gp I saw was very good and prescribed HRT without an issue. Repeat prescriptions have been a bit hit and miss and I prescribed Sandrena at one point(no gel available)and they prescribed it wrong.
I'm thinking do I need to add anti depressants. Obviously will need to see GP for that.
Sorry for the essay. I have no one to tell in RL. IME telling friends means that they keep then asking. I had this with the driving where they would then ask in front of others" how is the driving, do you feel better?"
Making me worse and highlighting it.
DP I'd never tell as again, not helpful and just sighs and says what do you want me to do?
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Iusedtobecarmen · 05/09/2022 12:50
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